shaping up

I've been working with a personal trainer, trying to get into shape. I look great in my gown, but I want to also look great in my swimsuit. I tried on some bikinis at Macy's last weekend, and they looked nice, until I turned around and noticed my back fat. My fiance thinks it's neglegible and says that I should wear the bikini, but I don't think so.

Anyhow, I'm so out of shape and it's ridiculous. I am sore to the touch, because I've been getting my butt kicked in the gym. I'm all for it, as long as I end up looking great. I know that I will appreciate seeing curves in all the right places, as well as my husband-to-be. I thought about going to the gym today, but I doubt that it will happen. I may need a bit more motivation, because I already think I look good. And to get rid of a couple of creases in my back doesn't seem to be enough for me to work extra hard.

I guess it would be beneficial for me to get into the habit of living a more active lifestyle. This may encourage my honie to jump into action as well. I have been doing a good job of cutting sweets down in my diet. I don't do well with diets, so I've compromised by eating foods that are high in protein, healthier than what I'm used to, but still tasty. This way, I'm eating what I want, and I'm making a small change in my eating habits.

Maybe I could be really strict and tough it out until the wedding. Then, I can really enjoy all of the party food, and dinners and desserts...it all sounds good, but I know that I wouldn't stick to that. I hate rules and restrictions when it comes to diet and exercise. We'll see what the outcome is soon enough.

invitations

Assembling the invitations is the only thing that has required much work, throughout this process, so far. I have also been enjoying spending time with my friends, while we work on the invitations together. I love the finished product. They look like little boxes of chocolate. This is going to be an effortless and wonderful experience that leads up to a beautiful day.

Other than the invitations, which will be mailed out on the 1st of April, I have nothing to do. Is it normal for a bride to be bored, waiting for the big day to approach? I'm not complaining. I mean, this gives me time to sneak up to Merrillville and spend some much needed quality time with my fiance. We're supposed to start decorating our new apartment next week. That will be loads of fun. I love doing things with him.

This entire wedding planning process reminds me of our relationship. Our relationship started out so effortless, and that is exactly the case for the planning. We had a couple of snags, where we needed to learn how to communicate better, but it's been smooth sailing since then. There were a couple of small snags with the wedding, but they were taken care of quickly and we're back on track.

I am wondering how my family is going to react to the fact that my reception will be for adults only. They all have several children, and are under the impression that they will be accompanying them to my wedding ceremony and reception, because that's how it's always been with weddings and my family. This just may cause them to decline my invitation, because they may not have a babysitter.

I've been told not to worry about it, and while I don't, I can't help but wonder how things will turn out. I just feel that I shouldn't have to accomodate so many children, when I don't have children and the majority of my friends don't have children either. Besides, I want this to be an elegant and sexy event, and children don't fit into that vision. Don't get me wrong; I love children. I plan to have my own family some day.

Slimming Down For the Honeymoon

While I've been so excited about how things are coming along with the wedding planning, I've been neglecting my body. I love my figure, but I have some areas that could use a little fine tuning. A couple of months ago, I joined Cardinal Fitness, because it's cheap and close to my house. But I haven't been in a little while, because I fell ill. I paid for two months worth of personal training sessions, but I haven't used them yet. I plan to use them soon, and I hope they help me slim down and tone up for my honeymoon.

My fiance continues to reassure me that he loves me the way I am. I believe he likes the fact that I'm bootylicious, and he doesn't want me to get rid of it. I told him not to worry, because I love my thickness as well, but there's nothing wrong with being toned. I also don't see a problem with being a smaller version of myself. I wouldn't have such a hard time finding jeans that fit my waist and thighs, first of all.

I've recently started lifting weights, because I learned that muscle burns fat. I figured I may as well build some muscle, since I'm not in the gym right now. I've also started taking Acai berry capsules, since they're supposed to help so much with energy and weight loss. I haven't seen any results yet, but I'm waiting. I am thinking about trying the slimquick drink packets, because I HATE taking pills. If it works, I definitely will post my results.

I have a little over three months to shed a few pounds and build some muscle. I believe I'll stick to the plan, because I have great reason to. Also, I believe that I'll look and feel beautiful when my big day rolls around.

The Struggle

People had been telling me that as the wedding gets closer I'd start having fights with my honie. I disagreed, saying that we were on the same page and that we were good at working together and communicating. And while we are those things, we still ended up arguing about the wedding, today. He thought it would be no problem allowing our guests to pay $4 for parking at our reception, but I felt differently. And I thought it would be no problem to pay the band less, since it's our band, they're our friends, and they would be at the reception anyway, but he felt differently.

I think the main struggle comes when it's about money. He's really passionate about the subject, while I am more about attention and time spent together. Anyhow, we made up, but there are still 118 days left. I hope the arguments don't get worse. I would like for us to enjoy the homestretch to beginning our forever.

In other news...
I waited a little late to find a photographer, but I was lucky enough to find a quality photographer who will give me a lot for my money. The only thing left for me to do is collect all of the addresses for the invitations. I think things have been going pretty smoothly, and I'm excited to see how everything comes together.

122 Days To Go...

Even though it's not quite around the corner, the wedding is rolling right along. Every deposit is paid and every service is guaranteed, except for the photographer which is the first thing I should have done. However, I did manage to find a great photographer who is available on my day.

I am kind of feeling like I'm behind schedule, because I gave myself until April 1st to send out the invitations, and I haven't ordered them yet. I just received a sample invitation in the mail, yesterday. Now, I just need to send in the order and finish my list of guests and addresses. My fiance is in charge of getting his list to me by the end of the week. If that happens, it will be a miracle, and I will be shocked out of this world.

The only other things I need to do is make sure my girls order their dresses in time, buy my shoes, and figure out what I'm going to do for my hair.

I hired a personal trainer to help me tone up for my big day. My goal is to be able to wear a bikini on our honeymoon. It's not a crazy goal; I just have to be dedicated to my workout and diet. I mean, I'm about as bootylicious as Beyonce, with a larger chest, I just don't workout nearly as much as she does.

I just booked our honeymoon a couple of days ago, and we're so excited. We'll be travelling to Montego Bay, Jamaica and staying at the Rose Hall Hilton Resort and Spa. From the pictures, I could see how beautiful and romantic the place is. The reviews were also great. I can't wait to experience it.