shaping up

I've been working with a personal trainer, trying to get into shape. I look great in my gown, but I want to also look great in my swimsuit. I tried on some bikinis at Macy's last weekend, and they looked nice, until I turned around and noticed my back fat. My fiance thinks it's neglegible and says that I should wear the bikini, but I don't think so.

Anyhow, I'm so out of shape and it's ridiculous. I am sore to the touch, because I've been getting my butt kicked in the gym. I'm all for it, as long as I end up looking great. I know that I will appreciate seeing curves in all the right places, as well as my husband-to-be. I thought about going to the gym today, but I doubt that it will happen. I may need a bit more motivation, because I already think I look good. And to get rid of a couple of creases in my back doesn't seem to be enough for me to work extra hard.

I guess it would be beneficial for me to get into the habit of living a more active lifestyle. This may encourage my honie to jump into action as well. I have been doing a good job of cutting sweets down in my diet. I don't do well with diets, so I've compromised by eating foods that are high in protein, healthier than what I'm used to, but still tasty. This way, I'm eating what I want, and I'm making a small change in my eating habits.

Maybe I could be really strict and tough it out until the wedding. Then, I can really enjoy all of the party food, and dinners and desserts...it all sounds good, but I know that I wouldn't stick to that. I hate rules and restrictions when it comes to diet and exercise. We'll see what the outcome is soon enough.